broken record.

I was prepared to tell you that I love you and that nothing will come between us. That I will try my best to be with you as soon as this is all over. That I am happiest when I am with you... and then you proved me wrong. You started the same argument all over again, even though you assured me it was resolved. It's like a broken record - You wanted to prove to me that you were better, you were stronger and that I should be lucky to have you. You showed me how you turned down other women and you think you are more mature. You dissapointed me again. Your words and actions changed my mind in an instant and all those feelings I had, went away, just like that.

I am back to where we started. I still love you - but I am not ready yet to give myself completely to you. Please stop making me..

crazy

you should worry when I am indifferent about it, not when I act incontrollable crazy.

lay with me

it's fine

I am trying to change, to make things better for us. Step 1: I am trying hard not to make a problem of little things - pointing out little promises you didn't keep; that one time you were fifteen minutes late and that time you said you would call back. I just don't want to be that needy girl anymore - I hate the feeling of wanting you more than you want me. Normally, I would automatically react and distancing myself from you, become cold, so you would feel what I feel. But now, I executed step 1: Took a deep breath, changed my state of mind, and thought, fine, it's fine.

a man's ego

what to believe

I feel that only you and I matter when you hold me. 

The world disappears. 

And here I am, selfish me, telling you I don't believe in fairy tales.

you blow my mind